Beautiful Sunday

This Sunday has been very eventful, to start out with.

Still can't locate a copy of The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada even at Amcorp Mall, but none the less the place is indeed a living wax museum with a pulse. Plus, I got the next best thing - three books for the price of RM50; hardcovers in good condition. It's definitely a place to visit more than just once in a blue moon.

I've also conducted a brief experiment to see how much one can gain from Fanfiction.net. By posting one fanfic, I can't believe that I got 5 reviews in less than 24 hours. This goes to show just how one topic can link people from around the globe! Thank you reviewers! :)

This was supposed to be posted 3 days ago

I'm going to be keeping up my posts, mostly becuase I want to remember my thoughts about delving deeper into the world of arts.

Three weeks have gone by and I am still hoping to hone my writing skills (you can never stop learning) as well as my confidence and my social capacity (conversing, speaking up etc.)

JRN expects me to keep up with the everyday news, which is something I don't do on a regular basis unless it concerns the film industries.

Now, I am in dire need of a moment of clarity. I'm expected to write two 1200+ word essays which are due next Monday and 1st of April. One will have me blabbering about the importance of media studies, while the other is a comfort in analysing The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada.

A Very Merry (Not-Un) Birthday - To Me!

March marks a month of momentous meanings and mouth-watering movies.
It’s that time of the year again.
Only now, I once told myself I didn’t want to keep adding on the digits, because it would mean having to step further and further and start taking up more responsibilities.
Nevertheless, it probably feels different this year because I’m on my own. Being in charge for the next few days. Thinking about Mum and Dad who are off on their holiday to Vietnam.
I’m writing this in longhand because the net’s dying on me. Plus, the day is still young and there will be plenty more to write about on this very special day.
Will post something later. And while I’m at it, I’m going to write more now that being a year older stimulates your brain juices.

I’m back - from a very important date.

What better way to celebrate a birthday than to have a tea party? And that is what me, my sis and Ee Mah had at Winter Warmers and Krispy Kreme.
Alice in Wonderland proves that Tim Burton has once again poured in his eccentricity, though the film is a little bit confusing at times. I want a Dormouse as my bodyguard and a white rabbit for an alarm clock! And Alice reminds me strongly of a modern Joan of Arc in her battle armour.
And now, before I turn in for the night, here’s a poem from the original story:

Twinkle twinkle little bat,
How I wonder what you’re at.
Up above the world you fly,
Like a tea tray in the sky.

Movie Bonanza

What a great day to watch two movies on the same day. I expect I'll be doing a lot more double features this year, seeing as I might have to disect films and analyze it bit by bit.

The Wolf Man brings on the horror, blood and gore as is expected. I don't know about the original Lon Chaney classic, but it is very faithful to the werewolf legend. My only fault is that I imagine these werewolves to appear more lupine just like the ones in Van Helsing. Prisoner of Azkaban shows nothing more than a naked chihuahua. Heck, even the werewolves in New Moon are bigger than your average canis lupus, but they are wolves none the less.

Moving on to The Book of Eli, it has more sentimental feeling with a touch of Resident Evil atmosphere (although I've not seen any of the movies). Maybe it's just the way Denzel Washington walks around carrying that machete. And Gary Oldman brings an edge into his villianous portrayal; I've never seen him do dastardly since Dracula.

Before I turn in, I'm going to add in Death Proof which I just saw on Star Movies. Doesn't kick as much ass as Kill Bill or Inglourious Basterds, but it qualifies the conditions of a QT movie. I'm impressed.

Ok, next month is guaranteed to be a TRIPLE TREAT. Solomon Kane, Alice in Wonderland and Clash of the Titans to appear on my must-watch list. At this rate, I sure hope to beat my previous record of 25 movies in cinemas. :)

Men have rights, too.

My 3 days of orientation in Monash are finally over. Finito. Habis. Whatever the phrase may be.

Today marks the most important day of it all; the signing up for the lessons, the grand campus tour and the collection of the student ID.

The campus has its own Women's Room, for females only because they have a right to their own private space. The irony of this is that I don't have a right to my personal space when after Day 3, me coming back home beat and exhausted, am dragged unwillingly off to Subang Parade straightaway.

Why? Because my sister insists on following Mum there, and being worried that she'll be all alone and myself at home, has no choice but to force my sorry, tired butt to come along and wait it out for the next 5 hours.

Where's the rights of men when you need it??!

CNY Ramblings

Back from Muar on the 4th day of CNY.

This year, it's been pretty dull. Ok, maybe that's just because other relatives come and stay for a day and then they're gone the next. Leaving my folks to hang around for a while.

In conjuction with the Year of the Tiger, I have picked up Ratha's Creature, which deals with prehistoric wild cats, but the characters are feline none the less. Maybe I'll read Watership Down for next year.

Will be going back to studying on Monday. Can't wait as I count the remaining days left. :)

The Fallen Queen

This is not the story of how a woman ascends to greater authority, but rather, how she descends from her grace to become a queen...

I was brought into existence as old as time itself. That is to say, I do not recall much of my youth, yet my immortality has preserved me as though I am a living portrait. My mother ruled the lands with her green thumb. And my father, well, there’s not much that I can tell, for I did not know him at all. Was he nothing more than a womanizer? Or perhaps he was indeed the king of all the gods as legend proclaims.

Regardless, being a descendant of such divine beings, one would think that I had only eternal bliss and not any unpleasant thoughts cross my mind. Such is the absurdity that springs from the fountains of the minds of stupid mortals. Their foolish reasoning would not be able to comprehend our deific intellectuals. For that, I pity them.

The ichors that flow through my divine veins boil and seethe with my rage. Every living being, mortal or god, were expecting me to take over my mother’s mantle. So what did it matter if I had no interest in governing over the land of the living? I knew I was destined for a greater ordeal. The words of my mother, despite the comfort it was supposed to bring, only fuelled my wrath.

Everything has a time and season. And where one falls, another will grow to take its place. That is the way the living live upon.

The fates were especially cruel to me. Instead of taking my place amongst my kin in the heavens, I would first descend to the depths of hell. I hated my mother. And I hated my very existence. But sometimes, it is so easy to mistake such loathing for something far greater than that.

When I first met my uncle, I admired everything that was him. Tall, dark and gaunt, he was not exactly fashioned out of the greatest of appearances, but my heart fell for him. The stories he told, I drew in with great fascination. He fought alongside his siblings in the Great War against the tyrannical rule of their father, resulting with their laurels held triumphant. How he was deceived to draw the worst bet amongst his brothers over who would dominate the mortal realms. And the punishments he meted out for sinners with the blackest of hearts – worse than facing death itself.

Even so, he was kind and gentle to me, ironic for his reputation as king of the underworld. It wasn’t long before I knew I had given my entire heart to him. How I longed to escape from it all and be with him for eternity. My dark angel.

And so it was carried out.

He was the executioner. But I am the mastermind; the architect of my own escape and salvation.

It was all part of the plan. The first thing was to get my overprotective mother out of the way. I concocted a ruse to fool her, saying that I would be gone for a while to gather some wildflowers. I would have none of her nymphs trailing behind me. Away from watchful eyes, I waited anxiously. Then, he came from the shadows and swept me off my feet and into his dark, harrowing dominion. We were doomed souls struck by love’s arrow indeed.

Those inferior mortals who know of our relationship have nothing less than their instincts shrouded with suspicion. Some actually believed that I was the innocent victim of a demented, necrotic paedophile. Incest, that very word spits with hatred from their mouths like raging wildfire. They can call me for what I am; a whore, or a low-life slut being the least. But all I did was to simply act out of my heart’s desire. Is that really so wrong?

For a period of time, I sat on my black obsidian throne as queen of the dead. As morbid as death which I sat by his side, nevertheless I was content with my place. But the ghost of my mother’s words had returned to haunt me. Everything has a season of its own. Including the humane emotion that is love.

As the weeks rolled into months, it had come to my notice that while my husband still cared for me under his wing, his heart was just the same as those of his subjects – dead, lifeless and stoical.

I asked him if he still loved me. He said that it did not mean anything, but he didn’t know. What difference would it have made anyway?

And my mother – what would she think of me? Would it break her heart to know that her precious, only daughter had been snatched from under her watchful gaze; never to return to her side?

I could picture her now.

She is garbed in a black veil, roaming endlessly to the ends of the earth. Where her tears drop, so falls the first flakes of snow. The cold, cruel air channels her sorrow to all corners of the land. So cold; it breaks the hearts of all who can feel. Even the trees have lost the will to live as they shrivel up and die.

I could not possibly return to a former life where I had slaved away my dignity and happiness. My dark angel had saved me from that. Perhaps he could liberate me forever from this torment.

Through my tears of deceit and persuasion, I told him that he meant the world to me – lower or above. I would never leave his side. Nor could I possibly bear the fact of returning to the land above to care for nature’s gifts which had its lease, but of that I did not tell. Fortunately, he told me, not every problem had to be overcome by being a god or goddess of wisdom.

The solution came in the form of a ripe, juicy pomegranate which he placed delicately in my palm. I stared hungrily into its trove of bright, sparkling rubies.

“Eat it,” he says. “No one who has touched and consumed the food of my domain shall be allowed to leave this place. Just a few seeds, my love, and you will be my queen. For as long as we shall live.”

For as long as we shall live. Those sweet, melodious words of his have led me to deliver my own verdict.

With every seed I sink my teeth into; it bursts into juice that course through my alleviating body. Each one is indeed a mirror; a reflection of the cause and effect I will bring upon my choice.

One for sorrow, two for joy.

I cringe at the thought of the wretched hurt that I have cast upon my own mother, but it is for the sake of my happiness.

Three for a girl, four for a boy.

Like peeling the layers of an onion, I have discarded my childhood innocence. And I have willingly welcomed the intrusion of another being into my sacred body.

Five for silver, six for gold.

Despite the underworld being many a mortal’s final resting place, it is also a host of limitless wealth. Materialistic riches and spoils for a woman of my status.

But before I can take a bite out of another seed, an epiphany dawns upon me. No matter how much I try to hide myself from the world above, they will come for me. I cannot do this.

Seven for a secret never to be told.

I had eaten the forbidden fruit from the garden of my paradise. And it should have been that I was to be condemned to reside forever in this fiery limbo. But while we enjoy casting the dice with the humans’ fate at stakes, we simply cannot allow them to die in vain.

So it was the will of the gods.

When I return to my mother’s company, a smile of pretence is greeted with tears of joy. In my mother’s eyes, I am her innocent daughter. Yet in her presence, my heart secretly pines with lament. I cry not for the short, pathetic mortal lives of plants, but because my time here seems like eternity.

Then six months slip away, like sand in an hourglass. The time comes for the tides to change.

I watch over the kingdom of the fallen with my husband. The only things that grow here are the pomegranates that I plant with care – a souvenir of my little victory. The trees here are the ones fashioned from the suicides, their corpses hanging from the limbs. Birds with hideous women’s’ faces tear profoundly at the bodies with the hopes of being able to nest. The lakes are nothing more than rivers of fire, washing away the sins of the damned. Their screams of agony trash about in my ears like echoes in a cavern. But it is a small price to pay, considering how low I have sunk to achieve my goal.

I am the Lady of the Underworld. The Queen of the Fallen.

And I know that I am definitely not making a mistake.

P.S: In case you were wondering, this is my version of the Persephone myth. ;)